Suggested by PoltergeistNaga
to do some vent art
If you're wondering what the text one background says well be prepared to read over 1000 words of my rambling.
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THE STRUGGLE IS REAL
by Adrianne (SUCHanARTIST13)
Okay so I'm infuriated because of my English 123 Professor is giving me some fresh shit. I don't like him and he is the only professor left in class registrations. The reason why I'm SO utterly enraged is because I have to fuckin "revise" more likely redo my essay for over 9000 times but that's not the big deal. The big ass deal is that I'm so close to failing the class plus losing my scholarship, my placement from the Dean's list, and retaking the class again in the summer. You know what, I know people could or maybe handle their shit with tough ass professors but THIS ONE--oh boy, I gotta tell ya-- This professor is one hell of a grader when it comes to essays. He expects "perfection", when I say perfection it's legitimately PERFECTION. I'm thinking in the back or my mind that no one is fuckin perfect. He expects people to write in his point of view in which I find is unfair for the most parts.
Since I'm attentive in his class, some information given could be wrong and more likely very opinionated. In other words, some of my classmates have their own interpretations on what is written pertaining to the subject matter and yet expects students --when writing essays-- should stick to "his" point of view. The subject matter I'm talking about is poems and plays from the greatest writers also known as LITERATURE. For example, Shakespeare, I don't mind Shakespeare but the only thing I mind is that I view some parts of the play differently than what my professor does. I do prove my point using my quotations from the lines of the play plus crediting.
Now, let's cut to the big problem, I write my essay, get it a week later, and had a conversation with him. I don't know if it's me calling this a racial stereotype because I am Asian or however you call it but he asked me if "English is my second language". Umm no shit Sherlock, yes it is. No--it's my first and native language, I have parents who speak English as a second language. In essence, doesn't really prove the way I speak/write efficiently plus I speak normally and fluently. To prove a point, there are foreign born people who could speak/write English efficiently. His comments are harsh and they didn't help me improve, therefore, more likely discouraging me to a point of not giving a fuck. I know that college professors can be intimidating but in all honesty, I would say that's the worst comment I've ever gotten from a professor. Professors "are" suppose to help students when they are struggling and give them tips. Not discourage them with an outburst of blunt feedbacks.
Unfortunately, he told me that he couldn't help me because my type of essay isn't "college level”. Okay Mr. Perfectionist, I understand that I'm not the best writer, I seriously suck making essays, and I will never become a writer—EVER despite of your “critique". I did go to a Writing Center before handing in the paper but that didn't do me any good. Seriously, what is "college level" perceived in such a way? Hard, excruciating, achieving perfection, writing eloquent yet sophisticated sounding essays with a bunch of bullshit SAT words slapped onto the face of the paper fulfilling 4 pages of random rambling? I felt like there are other perceptions. In my opinion, college can be enjoyable and a fun experience despite stress from workload and shit can be manageable as long there's no procrastination involved. On the other hand, college is about improvement, learning, and preparation to real life jobs not just some flat out discouragement then expecting some improvement to appear like magic.
Pertaining to my professor's teaching style, he shouldn't be too harsh to students who don't have a good English background or those who aren't majoring in English-- I'm one of those people. Although it's a required foundation class, I didn't come to an art college to write so-called "eloquent" English papers about literature in which results harsh feedbacks and yet again not learning shit. I came here to "ART". In the mere future, I won't be writing some motherfuckin' 4 pager. I want to a least improve my vocabulary, dictation, plus grammar to enable me to write a good résumés. To be fair, I know that there are professors with different teaching styles. Also I know that learning about literature could bring an open view to monumental writers but it also could inspire people to attain schematics that could be later used, maybe for storyboarding, playwrights, etc. In the contrary, this English Professor is just being a stupid ass-wipe. I learn nothing from this old man, I feel intimidated, and I wasted my whole quarter for this piece of shit course. If I fail on this course, I don't give a damn. I'm better off retaking it with somebody else from a local community college along with learning and improving. I'm sure that none of those professors are like the one I have currently. I'm not trying to give up on a fight; I won't drop this course because there's only two weeks left. But the results are so unpredictable therefore not knowing my grade or status. To be optimistic, I did well on most of my quizzes in which will save my ass from failing. And before I end this, I have a bit of a common ground, he's a funny guy with a great sense of humor and sometimes generous when giving workloads. He sometimes gets of a tangent and just rambles or rants about something that is non-relatable. Of course, there's no need for me taking some of his comments personally but I find it very discouraging yet makes things more aggravating.
Just to wrap this rambles, I don't really like this professor, I didn't have a choice due to registration problems, and this class is a waste of time and learning experience.
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